I'm way past due for an update! As I recently mentioned to Emilie, I had been feeling guilty about not updating as much now, but I've been busy living my life rather than logging it! Soon, I'm sure I'll have lots of "down time" again to update on a more regular basis. (Yeah, yeah, I know what you're thinking… "You're going to have two kids, you think you're going to have "down time"? But not having 44 hours a week in the office will make a huge difference to my time!)
So, here are the odds and sods… updates and what's going through my head at the moment.
- My ultrasound (almost four weeks ago!) showed that I was 11 weeks + 5 days. So as of today, I'm 15 weeks + 3 days. The time is going by so quickly. I remember it dragging during my first pregnancy, but I'm so busy with BB and work that I blink and another day or week has passed.
- My doc is already showing that he has math issues. We ran into this a lot last time. My last appointment was exactly two weeks after my ultrasound. I told him that the u/s showed that I was 11 weeks + 5 days. So he pulled out his little round, pregnancy calendar thingy, and informs me that I am now 13 weeks + 3 days. Huh? 11 weeks + 5 days plus 2 weeks equals 13 weeks + 3 days? I corrected him (because I figured it was an obvious correction), and he said, "Well, these things are never exact." Ah, nice cover! I get that they're not exact, but math *is* exact. Or at least it should be! Last time I stopped correcting him because I realized there was really no point and it just made me look like a smart ass, and this incident reminded me of that. So again, I'll just grin and nod at whatever tells me, and count down the weeks until I move on to the OB, who seems to have more of a clue than he does.
- I feel like I was put on this planet to be pregnant. My pregnant state feels much more natural to me than my non-pregnant state. Is it a female thing? Is this what makes us keep having babies? Even putting on my big, warm sweaters… last winter I felt empty in them without my baby belly. When I started wearing them again this fall, the felt so much more right.
- I've been thinking a lot lately about how friendships change and people drift apart. It's something I'd like to explore more in a post, but I don't know if I can pull my thoughts together on it. I am still raw from the friendships I'm thinking of in particular, and I feel that I need to take the time to properly write about them. At this point, the time for a thoughtful post isn't in the cards.
- For the last year or so I've been a haunted by an incident involving a doctor I had in high school. It's weird how you can ignore something for years and then suddenly it hits you like a tonne of bricks. Again, another topic I'd like to try writing about to see if I can bring some closure to the issue, but I need to take the time to do it right.
- I'm taking the plunge and getting the flu shot for myself and BB, and the H1N1 when it is available. I don't know what the right thing to do is, and I worry that whatever decision I make will be the wrong one. All I know is that I'll never forgive myself if I do the wrong thing. It feels like I'm playing the lottery, but if I lose the results could be life threatening. I'm afraid.
- We had family pictures done last weekend with the same person that did pictures of BB last fall when he was six months old. I received the CD with the edits yesterday and was amazed with the results. We have such a beautiful little boy. He was having a rough day that day, and we all had to work hard to keep his spirits up, but you can't tell in the pictures. He looks so happy in all of the pictures. He completely takes my breath away. (For the couple of you that read this that are friends on Facebook, I'll hopefully have some of the pics uploaded soon!) I had to laugh at some of the family pictures though. There are shots of DH and I walking away from the camera with BB in between us and holding our hands. Oh my, do I look like a wide-load! I had a hard time finding something to wear for the pictures that fit and didn't show off my newfound weight too badly, but that didn't make me look like Two-Tonne-Tessie as well. Well, the pics from behind are frightening. And no, those ones probably won't be uploaded to FB. Or at least the worst of them won't be! Ten pounds can make a HUGE difference when you're as short as I am!