Sunday, March 28, 2010

18 Weeks

In the past 18 weeks, I have...
  • lost my husband
  • learned about compassion and betrayal
  • discovered that I'm a much stronger person that I ever gave myself credit for
  • bought a house
  • learned that I can be independent and yet still ask, and rely on, others for help
  • been reminded that my family will always be there for me regardless of how hard I try to push them away
  • taken a lover and then somehow found the strength to let him go and simply be his friend
  • learned that I can love again, and even trust again, in spite of the hurtful act that was committed against me by the person I believed I could trust more than anyone else in the world
  • met my husband's mistress and was calm and friendly, for the sake of my children
  • played nurse to my son while he suffered from pneumonia and dehydration
  • fought for my son's health when the doctors at the hospital would not believe he really was a very sick little boy
  • stayed with my son in the hospital for several days and many scary moments while he recovered from his illness
  • spent four sweet days at home with BB after he was released from the hospital, doing nothing but colouring and drawing at the kitchen table
  • given birth to an amazing baby girl who is currently curled up naked on my bare chest.
Life is good. Life is sweet. Life takes unexpected turns sometimes and I need to find a way to embrace them. I often need to remind myself of this, but I do believe it.


Emilie said...

Cuddles! Congratulations on your new daughter. How wonderful!
And, congratulations on all the rest of it, too. It may have been a tough road, but all those blessings were mixed in there, too. Thinking of you!

Beyond A Mommy said...

Wow, that is an amazing 18 weeks! I've said it before, you are a strong person who deserves happiness and having BB and a beautiful new daughter is sure to bring that! Congratulations!!

Independent Chick said...

As I have said many, many times before, you are one truly amazing woman. There really need not be any other words...

ML said...

My Dear Friend, you never cease to amaze me with your unfailing strength!!