And then today I was putting away laundry and noticed the package for my Bella Band. It says something like, "Ok, you're pregnant." I glanced at those words and my heart soared a bit. I thought, "I am?" (Immaculate conception, anyone?) For a brief moment I was excited at the prospect. I recall it was around this point in BB's young life that I started trying to ignore the twinges for another baby. Is this what being female is all about? Always wanting just one more baby? Because after those twinges started, I began to think about how much pregnancy agrees with me, how easy childbirth was this time around, how much I enjoy being a mom, how if I can do it on my own this time, I could definitely manage a third if I actually had a significant other to help.
These thoughts need to go away. I need to go back to being rational and negative.